Other people’s words about … this amazing world
Look at the sky. (It’s amazing. It’s always amazing.)
From ‘Notes on a Nervous Planet’
by Matt Haig
I’ve found myself at a loss for words to write in here recently. The loss of words carries over to images, too, and therefore to other media like my Instagram account — I haven’t taken a photograph for weeks. I haven’t even been able to pick up a pen and write in my own diary.
I am, in general, someone who is readily able to immerse myself in the wonder of the natural world. The photographs I take and post, here and on Instagram, of the scrub and the sea and the sky and the sand and the sunset, are the physical manifestation of this. The habit of wondering is one I taught myself, years ago, as a way to manage the bouts of anxiety and sadness I’ve always experienced. Call it mindfulness, call it relaxation therapy, call it diversion, call it meditation, it’s what I do: it’s how I move through the world. It’s how I stay present, how I stay humble.
But since the end of last year, ever since the fires began raging here, I haven’t been able to respond that way to the world around me: to access that wonder. In fact, wonder feels frivolous — insensitive, tasteless — when the world around you, the living world, is burning, burning.
Here in South Australia, in the last couple of weeks, we’ve had milder weather, and even some rainfall. As a result, the fires, for now, are largely under control, though when the heat returns — as it will — so, I think, may the fires.
But in the wake of those fires, the land in those areas has burned to nothingness. The trees and the animals have been killed. There is nothing left. There is nothing to wonder at.
What I feel now, instead of wonder, is rage and grief. These fires should not have happened. For thousands of years, before 1788, the people who lived here managed the land, and they managed fire. They co-existed with the natural world. In the last two hundred years, we have lost that ability, and with it we are losing the land.
There are books you can read about this, if you want to know more — books that were written well before this year’s fires, books that studied the past and made warnings about the future. I would recommend, in particular, Bill Gammage’s The Biggest Estate on Earth (about which, you can read more here).
There are also things you can do, right now — organisations to which you can donate your money, or your time, or your talent. If you are an Australian, there are choices you can make today, as you go about your daily life, about how you spend any disposable income you might have — for example, where you buy your food, where you go on holiday — so that your money goes towards local communities affected by the fires (for example, #bookthemout and Empty Esky). I hope that, though movements such as these are aimed at helping the people affected by the fires, they will also, as a natural consequence, help the other living beings affected by the fires. By contributing to these areas, you contribute to all the lives within those areas.
I would add: do these things now. Please. But also, do them forever.
Bushfire prevention is a long-term strategy. It’s a lifestyle choice, and it’s a political choice. If we are to change the course of the future in Australia, if we are to change the way we live in our environment, if we are to learn to co-exist in this Australian environment, then we have to change things forever.
Until we manage to do this, I, like many other Australians, will continue to feel rage and grief instead of wonder.
3 thoughts on “On wonder, and grief”
It has been heartbreaking, seeing the destruction and desolation in the wake of the fires. I have a similar reaction to grief – I can’t create, all energy is taken up by trying to survive and recover. I have hope that given the losses in Australia, California and the Amazon, folks are heeding the earth’s wake-up call. While it is frustrating that my own country’s govt. is so irresponsive to climate change, it is heartening that at least local govt. and companies are taking up the baton.
Hang in there.
Thanks Eliza. I genuinely believe that the only good thing that will come out of this destruction is that everyday people like you and me have woken up and seen how real climate change, and maybe, MAYBE, people will begin to hold our governments, who deny and/or refuse to act upon climate change, accountable. That’s my most fervent hope out all of this.